Runnin on Empty

Well I'm really getting worn out lately. Not feeling the best today, combined with the necessity to work a ton this week, practice 2 nights, go to church, plus many other things is making me feel a little trapped. It wasn't that long ago that I thought "I'm not a very busy guy". Now, I've barely got any free, open time. Having too much open time wasn't good, but I'd really love to have that happy medium (but wouldn't we all?)

So the job situation right now is that I'm in an exceptionally unique situation - I have a contractor type job working for a friend of mine who is a Real Estate Investor. I get paid by the hour and can usually work when I want, but that didn't work out the greatest so I decided to put some structure into it. Now, I decided to commit to working 30 hours a week, but since I fell behind a couple weeks ago, I've got a lot of catching up to do. I don't think it will be possible to catch up this week, so next week will also have to be used. What's tough is that I haven't been paid for awhile and would really like to be paid soon (luckily I've done some other side work to supplement my income). That is honestly most of the stress I have in my life right now.

On the other hand, I'm dating a wonderful girl named Kali who is a source of joy and excitement for me. She's very laid back and fun, and we always enjoy our time together. It's hard for me to get used to being with someone as it's been quite awhile since I've dated, but luckily we're both on the same page with things so it shouldn't be difficult.

My mind keeps dreaming of what my life could be like, and it's causing me to lose focus on what my life is like and what things I can do to make it better. Despite the hardships, my family is still close, so I have that going for me. I have a living situation which allows me to save TONS of money, hopefully I can save up to buy my own house in the near future. I've got a wonderful girlfriend, and awesome best friend, and an amazing group of people to support me at the church I attend. I'm involved with a worship team and starting up my own band, I can play keyboard/piano and I'm learning drums and guitar. When I start looking at all my blessings, it should make me come to the conclusion that I'm pretty lucky right now. Unfortunately, the human drive is insatiable; you have to have a purpose.

At this point, my brain is tired. I'll write more later

First Entry - Stupid HUD

Well here I am, ready to start being an idiot by putting all the thoughts I should be keeping to myself out there for everyone to view. Crap. Well, I guess I'll just have to be careful. I'm not exactly how long that I will keep up with this blog, but hopefully it's an interesting enough hobby for me that I get the inspiration to write more. I will most likely be journaling more and then pulling out selected (and censored) segments to put on to here. Or, I may just get on here and complain about something that is going on in this world. Not sure how many people, if any, will read this thing. I will try and link it to my Facebook account so all of my stalkers on there can fulfill their desires even more by prying into my innermost thoughts. Yes, I love being a little sarcastic when I talk. Deal with it.

Speaking of things going on in this world, I was just informed by a contact in Boston today that HUD is considering changing a lot of the specifications and requirements for new construction projects that fall under the 223 or 221d-4 guidelines. Now I'm sure that most of you may have no idea about the specifics of those, but they're basically FHA programs that are able to insure certain types of developments. My particular job right now is involved with starting a new construction project that is a rehab of 31 units and construction of 11 new units, and HUD will be insuring the loan. It's a long and complicated process, and with the new guidelines (which I don't believe have taken effect yet), it will make it harder for borrowers to live up to the guidelines. This in turn will just make our situation a lot harder and require even more time tweaking things and getting money together in order to reach the closing date.

To put it simply - If the Government passes the new regulations, we're screwed.